Monthly Archives: March 2013

From Death to Eternal Life

I had this dream while I was napping:

I was at my Baba and Dido’s house in Two Hills. My Baba was sitting in the green armchair Dido always used to sit in, but it was in the bedroom I always sleep in. She was hooked up to a heart monitor. Suddenly, the heart monitor registered she was going into cardiac arrest. I called out to my Mom, who was in the next room. I turned back to my Baba, but it was too late; in the blink of an eye, she was gone. I sobbed. I couldn’t believe she was gone.

I turned to my Dido, who had just appeared. And in that moment, as quickly as she was gone, my Baba was alive again. I went to her and I said, “Baba, you just died,” to which she responded with something like, “Oh, that’s why I feel like something weird happened.” The doctor checked her out (I think the doctor was my Dad) and said she was fine, me adding, “Except for old age,” as my Dido looked on in a concerned manner.

I think it’s interesting I had this dream today, on Easter Sunday. My Baba passed away 4 years ago the week before Easter, my Dido leaving the earth 7 years before. I’m not a dream analyst, but I can tell you what this dream means to me, in the context of this great day: they are alive. My grandparents are alive. I witnessed my Baba die again in my dream, but I also witnessed her wake back up again, just like Peter and the other Apostles witnessed Jesus rise from death. My Dido’s concern is nothing more than making sure my Baba got through the passageway okay, and according to the doctor, she did. Where my “Except for old age” remark fits in, I have no idea. But maybe it has something to do with my lack of enlightenment, my lack of understanding of what had truly taken place before me. I thought Baba was still the same as she was before she died, but in reality she had just become immortal.

Well, there are my two cents this Easter Sunday. I hope you have the chance to celebrate this greatest of feast days with your family and friends, sharing in fabulous food, conversation, and prayer.

God bless, Khrystos Voskres, Christ is Risen, Happy Easter!

Joyanne 😀

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Grey Skies: The New Blue

I feel sorry for grey clouds. You never hear anyone say, “You know, I really love how gloomy it is today with all those grey clouds outside. They really brighten up my day.” No, we are much more likely to say that about sunny skies or white, fluffy clouds, or even thunder clouds (I know a few people who love a good thunderstorm).  But just run of the mill grey clouds? Not a chance.

But I was looking at the grey clouds that seem to be perpetually positioned outside my window and thought to myself, “Why not?” Don’t grey clouds deserve as much love as blue skies, sunshine, and thunder clouds? I mean, doesn’t the saying go, “Every cloud has a silver lining”? Grey clouds are silver all the time, after all, so maybe they’ve got something to offer other than gloom and doom.

I challenge you to look at the grey clouds in your life and find some beauty in them. You never know; finding the beauty in them just might brighten up your day. And maybe, if those clouds are very lucky, they will get some much-needed loving too.

Have a lovely, grey-skied day!

Joyanne 😀

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No, It’s Not Okay! But I Still Love You

Think about this: if someone wrongs you in some way and then apologizes, do you say, “That’s okay,” or do you say, “I forgive you”?

For the past little bit I’ve become aware of the fact that I never ever say the words, “I forgive you” to anyone who apologizes to me after hurting me in some way.  I always say, “It’s okay.”  Problem is, it’s not okay, but for some reason I feel so awkward saying the words, “I forgive you.” Why is that? I don’t know, but I’m thinking I’m not the only one who says, “That’s okay” even when someone really hurt you and it’s clearly not okay that they did so.

Why does this matter? Well, I feel like when we say, “It’s okay” we brush aside any responsibility the other person has in aquiring our forgiveness, and any responsibility we have in forgiving them. I’m sure you have heard that forgiveness is the key to successful relationships, whether they be platonic or romantic, and I think the reason why this is is because when we say, “I forgive you,” we acknowledge that what the other person did was indeed wrong and/or did hurt, but we are willing to move past it. When we say, “That’s okay,” we literally say, “I’m fine with what you did, so let’s not talk about it anymore.” BUT IT’S NOT OKAY! Are we honestly such pushovers that we can’t say to someone, “You were wrong and what you did hurt, but I still love you”? I know I am, and it sucks to realize that.

But now that I’ve realized the enormous difference between the two phrases, I’m going to try my best to actually forgive someone instead of pretending that everything is okay.  I hope you join me in this quest for being brave enough to forgive!

Peace,

Joyanne 😀

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